To my pleasant surprise, I was remarkably chilled watching the Fulham game. I cared enough to watch, and obviously wanted us to win, but there was no danger to the various breakable objects around me. I switched the tv off when the 2nd went in and continued reading my book. I simply wasn't enjoying watching us.
Thing is, I like football. I like to watch pretty much any level too. Watching us though is (or was) something else. It's not just about football, there is something tribal perhaps. I'd prefer we played a style I like to watch but it's not essential. I'll obviously watch us whatever division we're in (stream willing) but realise now that it'll not anger me. That pleases me.
I'll roll with the ups and downs. Rudkin may come or Rudkin may go (ditto Top and Whelan) but I'll still roll the club. That is us, ebbs and flows. We've had good times of late, it's been brilliant, but I'll not lose sleep over relegation, or playing like shit. As I say, that's us.
If that all means that I don't care, or am apathetic, than I'll take that call.